Or atleast thats what I feel like doing today. Brian left yesterday to go back to base and flight call has been confirmed. I can't say the date, but very soon he will be in Kuwait. We have no idea what contact will be like. For the first two weeks, they are living in tents and training more, so more than likely it will be like a phone call a week, if we're lucky. I know he will do his best at contacting us, it's just very hard to adjust to. My stomach is not handling this well at all and to exasperate the problems, being that life feels soooo unstable right now and a lot of worries, panic attacks have reared thier ugly head agian today. I'm just overwhelmed. I have been semi-hibernating today. I get so down that I really just want to be alone. 366 more days til he is back home with us! (his orders were cut on July 20th for 400 days). If you would, please keep him in prayers for a safe flight and safety over in the sandbox. It would mean a lot to me. Thank you!

YAYY! He is home for a few days. This time, it is really emotional for all of us. We know what date he has flight call, although we can't say the date. It's approaching rather quickly & we are all emotional. When my husband goes to work in a week, we don't know if he will return home alive. It's a very scary place to sit for a year. We all know that fear, we all live with it everyday. It's hard to not look at him and cry. I'm also a little scared about where they are sending him (we also know that and aren't supposed to tell) and its the heart of it all, alot of insurgents, snipers, and mortors. It doesnt make me feel any more comfortable. But really, is there a safe area in Iraq?!

We hung out yesterday, ordered luch out from Perkins, watched movies, and then took the girls over to feed the fish. Brian and I both took our camera's and we had a good time!

This is my favorite picture!

Ohhh, btw...even though I have a ways to go yet, Im officially down a pants size!

self pics, lol!

and what is this?!! Christmas in August!!!! We bought Brian the handheld psp console and madden game and also the psp2 madden game for him to take with him for some entertainment!

He got a lil drunk on the way home from N.J. ha ha!...the facial expressions!

and cuddle time!

the pug was all curled up to my face, lol!

Koda bearz is one happy pup since daddy is home!!!!

Brian took pics for me to see! I was so excited to see them!

Brian and his close friend Coreona (remember they go by last names, lol!)

Brian is the 3rd one over

Brian

The shower room. There are 6 shower heads in this small ass room. I have come to the conclusion through this deployment that in America, we treat prisoners better.

this is what thier sleeping quarters look like. They are crammed in 12 man rooms.

I jumped on to see the new secrets this morning on PostSecret...and came accrossed this on:

I don't know who wrote this, but I hope they somehow come accrossed this ...

It touched my heart.

 I feel the same way. I don't know what I would do or how to begin to carry on. I do know If my worse fear came true, my two girls count on me. I'm scared, too.  I will pray for you and I hope you pray for me!

An Army Of One
I've noticed in my present job, there is a tiny quirk. There's no respect at all and it's not considered work. Well, I am here to show you another point of view, and give you an idea of what I really do! Here's my job description and to better understand, it's written in the language of the Army Man. I'm the IG, complaints come to me. I am the Medic, I bandage skinned knees. I'm the Legal Office and the courts-martial, too. I decide the punishment, how much and on who. I'm Health & Welfare, inspecting for junk, and the 1SG checking the bunk. I'm also Supply, in charge of food, clothes, house wares, diapers, toys, heaven only knows. I'm the MP, who secures the door, I'm also the PVT who GI's the floor. I'm the Mess SGT who cooks all the meals. I'm TMP in charge of the wheels. I'm MWR planning all the fun and I am the Bugler, announcing the "day is done". I'm the KP, who does all the dishes, I am the DA who hears all you wishes. I'm the CQ and the Fireguard, too, there isn't that much that I don't do. I'm the instructor too, you see, because what is learned is taught by me. I'm the Squad Leader, who knows his troops well, sometimes the Drill SGT who really can yell. I'm the S4, S1, 2 and 3, just about everything must come through me! Appropriations, taskings, commitments too, I'm responsible for all we do. I never go to battle, and AR of some sort, but you can count on me to bravely guard the fort. I'm ALWAYS on duty, I never take leave, no Holidays off, it's hard to believe! I can never ETS, I signed for life, my primary MOS is Mother, my secondary is Army Wife. For all my devotion, to duty, my LES says "NO PAY DUE" because I'm not paid in money, but in the words of 'I LOVE YOU'. I AM AN ARMY OF ONE - A PROUD ARMY WIFE!

I created a military msn group...

You must have a loved one in the U.S. military to apply.

I've created this group for women who stand behind & support thier military men! Come in and make yourself at home and enjoy some laughter, support, and friendship! It doesn't matter what branch of service you are...NG, Reserves, Active, Airforce, Army, Navy, ect.

Here's the link!

http://groups.msn.com/MyHeroWearsCombatBoots/

We had a really crazy week, one full of up's and down's! First of all Brian got injured while in training. They were up in the tower (3 of them) and two were shooting a saw. They are like semi automatic / automatic type of weapons and three hot shells flew back in a matter of seconds and hit Brian's neck and down his shirt. It got caught underneath his flack vest and burnt him pretty good. He finished training and they took him the the medical center where he got medicine to put on it. I don't know how bad it looks yet, but he said the skin is black. I feel so bad! He's had a bit of a rough go so far between some stomach problems 9which prilosec helped with eventually) and migaines. I'm sure long work days and no days off contribute to a lot of stress for him.

Then our pay did not register for next week. I thought about it for awhile and thought it was stange that the pay stub is not showing up online (and mind you they keep screwing up our pays) One mess up is apparently the military cant decide if we have kids or not b/c one pay they will pay us for the two dependants and the next pay they take all that money back, and this has been an ongoing problem so Brian has to get to the finance building next week and get it fixed. My last pay they took 300.00 back from us (which they owe us back for the dependants, we do have 2 kids, lol!) Anyhow, I called family support to ask if their pay stubs registered and they gave me the phone number to a lady who could better help me. I called her and she was very nice. She called the unit and called me back and said "It was processed late, we would just get a double pay check on Sept's pay." I was like ok, got off the phone and was super stessed. I mean, with the economy being so bad and they way they deployed Brian, we were just beginning to roll into bigger pay check's, so we haven't exactly been floating in money by any means, so I was really worried with not a cent to my name how I would way to get Brian home in a week, how I would feed 2 kids for 3 weeks, school clothes, and bills that are due this month. I was really emotional all day long. Well then later on I logged into the pay web site and it did register! We will get paid on time and it's 500.00 more than I anticipated so I can pay more bills! yayy!

The good news is Brian is coming home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYY! Im sooooo excited! He will have another 4 days pass (as long as he doesnt get flight call. If he were to get flight call then they have to drop everything & get back to the unit to head over sea's) We won't have to go to N.J. now which is really good for both of us - my stomach has not been good at all this month so far and he will have all the comforts of home that he misses so much!

Ciera caught another stomach bug. I didn't think it was possible for so many to go around in the summer, but she came down with it Friday night & Saturday  Haley come down with it. She still isnt up to par today. I have a feeling its closing in on me...blah! I'm already under the weather, I seem to be stuck in a flare recently, I haven't eaten in two days as of today b/c Im nauseous.

Anyhow....7 more days until my honey is home! I wont be answering the phone when he is here! I cant wait to spend time with him, so if you happen to call, please don't think Im being ignorant. This will be the last time I see him unless he is ganted R & R this deployment. ( we were cheated out of it last deployment! ) If you would, please pray for his safety!

I couldn't resist....

The pug does facial expressions...can ya feel the attitude I was getting, lol!

Jayce just climbs into his toy box! lol!

Ciera wasn't feeling well so she slept out in the living room with mommy

Koda

Riley

Haley